Dec 09

Apparently someone died. And it has scared me enough to write this post in case I'm next. :D

I'm addicted to The Ting Tings "Shut Up and Let Me Go". And loads of other songs which I've been hearing on the radio. Yup that's my source for new hit songs. o.O

I'm on a quest to find the perfect TEVA slippers. Yeah after a year of stealing wenny's slippers to wear I can't get used to sandals anymore. And anyways my sandals are broken. TEEEEEEEEVA....

Korkor has a patypus. Platypus. It's so cute... And I needa return his mahjong tiles. I hope got enough people at the BBQ to play mahjong. I'm kind of deprived already, I wonder how I'll play next year... No more hostel le D:

I have gotten my army letter. And I've deferred it until Dec 09. It's so scary that we're Yr 6 already. I don't know how I'm going to take leaving again. I still haven't gotten over leaving Temasek... I know a part of me says that it's all for the best and stuff, but many times I still wonder why I left in the first place. Then another part of me flames me and says I wouldn't have met such great people if I hadn't left, but I wouldn't have left such great people if I had never left in the first place... It's complicated like hell.

And I'm scared of doing it again with next year. I know it's going to happen anyway, but it doesn't make it easier or anything.

When I was really young I used to want to grow up so I could have loads of money to buy stuff and do stuff, but now... growing up isn't easy at all, and I'll rather study or stuff now.

Christmas... in 3 days!

Christmas is in 3 days and I think I'm coming down with some runny-nose thing...

And we have a BBQ on the 31st now, I have to tell Conrad but he's overseas and doesn't come online faithfully... 

I just watched the last episode of the Kids Next Door, and it's so sad... I think it's irritating to grow up. You have to do so much stuff, and you can't play as much, and you have to work, and even though you have alot of cash you can't spend it. And there's so much politics and stupid stuff going on around you, and you have to like blast through everything and find some way to survive...

I'll rather be studying for the rest of my life or something. At least I know I can be doing something and there's people around.

I miss Temasek alot still. I miss everyone there, and now they're like scattered all over the world. Sometimes I think what it'll be like if I never went to NUS High. It's weird but I can't really imagine it now. And as Johno put it, I wouldn't have met so many people that I love now. However, that doesn't make it any easier when we graduate next year. It doesn't make it hurt any less; it doesn't make it any better at all. In fact, I think it makes it worse because I know I brought this on myself, that I chose it, even though at that time I knew about what would eventually happen.

We seem to be rushing on together-time; we just had a chalet, we're gonna have a lunch and a BBQ later in the holidays, and next year we're going overseas on a trip. I think everyone's feeling it, the sense that we're not going to see each other very soon. Maybe it's something we picked up from the Yr 6s. They keep telling us that they found the year to pass very fast, and I think it's made us just a bit more panicky than usual. I just don't get how everyone else can hide it so well...

I guess it's all right for hardened people like kor, or people who are like so perfect in everything they do, like Johno. They just take it with a "so what?" and that's the end of it. It's so easy for them, and maybe they don't understand how I feel. I hate leaving...

Anyways, I think I'm going to sleep now. It's always so depressing when I think about these things.

Chalet photos... and weird stuff

That's like korkor... playing something on the PSP or the DS or whatever. It's orange. Kinda dirty orange and its weird...

 

 

Mahjong khakis... However you spell that. They're playing mahjong. Duh.

 

 

Let sleeping Jacks lie... While the rest of us went to play mahjong outside. MUAHAHAHA.

 

CS retards who come chalet to, what else, play CS.

 

Doggy. More commonly called Dalton. He was so much fun at the BBQ, then he turned lethargic the next day. Aaron was mean to him. I tried to bribe him to stay with me from then on but it failed... D:

 

My dear roomamte being a retard and trying to jump over the table. I wish I could say he failed and hit his balls, but unfortunately he didn't. Not that he was good or anything... the table was just too low. >.<

 

Char's turn to be retarded. Tried to jump through the photo when I was taking, but still failed. End up got quite a nice shot.

 

Johno and Mitchell... and Johno's camera, which can do alot of things and take loads of nice photos, and apparently its the first of its kind (DSLR) where you can see what you take through the screen instead of only the viewfinder. Anyways, it took a picture of Aaron, together with the nice scenery behind, which included kissing lovers. Ask Johno for more details, and pray hard he kept that photo. XD

 

We had lousy hair. It was windy. The camera was held too close. Bad shot. ZZZ

 

My roommie. Just him yup. He deserves to have a star rating in this picture, because he's obviously more interested in his right pocket then the camera.

 

The tousled hair look is in style... And we're catching on quick. High winds and long hair required for maximal effect. However, having people growing out of your head isn't a fashion style; more like randomness...

 

Portrait shots of people. Required by law in case they need mugshots.

 

Aaron's a contortionist!!! Notice foot on his right. (That's mine by the way!)

 

Last picture before Aaron left... His doggy was home alone. I wonder if it had to fight off criminals who break into the house with a truly ingenious plan of using common household items to wage war against them and get them out of the house... (Obscure "Home Alone" reference here. It's a TV show.)

 

Notice pink slippers that are WAYY too small. Guess whose those are hahas.

 

Whose feet are in which pair of shoes. (It's kinda obvious if you know what you're looking for... )

 

Last photo taken. The '03 gang. MUAHAHAHAHA.

 

Rightttt...

So after that LONGGGGG photo montage, I have decided to write about my whole 5 days of experiences...... tomorrow. Or something. I'm really tired now, and I'm going to sleep.

*also: I'm gonna see how long it takes for people to find this blog again.

**also: I'm gonna die next year, Kor's joining ODAC, and I'm gonna be tortured to run... and run... and runnnnnnn... NOOOOO. Bao, maybe you'll have to wheel me around St Luke's when they're done with me... Hmm... XD

And he said...

I thought of restarting a new blog since it's like just after hostel. We should start afresh, and anyways it's hard to read all that I wrote without missing hostel.

In the end I couldn't think of a better blog address, so I gave up and decided to continue on this blog.

Yeahh. Took me like half an hour to decide to shift back.

Mr Lim happened...

I feel old tonight. Really old. Astro was way cool today; the last part got kinda weird. Gave out the jackets, collected money, said goodbyes to Yr 6s, went up to observatory while everyone complained in the dry lab and gave suggestions on what to do for next year...

Mr Lim scolded them afterwards. Not really scolded; more like gave them a pep talk. On how they shouldn't like be criticising us if they won't even lift a finger to help... So epic... And moving.

It's kinda sad that it takes a teacher doing this to open your eyes to what's been going on the past few weeks, or months. We've worked so hard, and we don't even bother if anyone notices it, but apparently someone did. And that's all that matters right now.

It's hard to have all these things said in front of the Yr6s; after all, they're the ones that started all of this. I guess it's also hard for them to see how we've taken over from them. I guess it's kinda like seeing your kids grow up. It's really regretful that we couldn't put up a better night for them today, but I think they had fun in the observatory tonight. We're having a last session celebration the last week after the Yr1-4 exams. It's a big party, and we're going to start planning right now. It's going to be something so big and well done that everyone's going to remember it. I guess in the end, it's the least we could do. I guess we're all going to miss him and stuff, and though we don't know what astro's going to be like next year, we'll always do our best to make things work out, the way he would have wanted it, the way it would be if he was still here. There's something about carrying a mantle that's both deeply comforting and deeply inspiring.

I guess there are still a few problems to be worked out with astro; we'll be sure to get down on them as soon as possible. And even though he may be leaving us veryvery soon, I guess even at the last minute, there are nuggets of wisdom to be found everywhere in a person. So right to the very last moment, I'm going to keep listening, and watching, for those nuggets. Because each one is precious, and each one teaches us a lesson we'll never forget.

Being stupid

One thing about not studying for anything is that people always tend to take you as being damn stupid. So you tell them something that you know alot about, and you get weird bullshit from them, like having argued about it with a teacher before or just knowing. It's damn idiotic, especially when said fact is like staring at you in your damn face one mouse click away on wikipedia.

I guess there's a price to pay for acting stupid. On one hand it almost guarantees that'll people won't take you seriously if you say anything wrong; yet even that is a double-edged sword, especially if you have thick-headed friends who think they're so smart just because they study the whole day. No one ever realises that on things that I like, I take less than half a day to study. Well, I don't see the point of studying so hard just to show that I can. What's the point of studying the whole day if you can do the same amount of work in half an hour? The only point is to simply show off. It's probably a defence mechanism just to comfort themselves that they're doing something to try to be better.

I don't believe in studying. There's not much point in it, the way the world's going. Furthermore, I don't see the point of trying to slam something into your head when you obviously don't want to. You'll end up decreasing your satisfaction with that subject, with only minimal increase in mugging power...

The whole day I've been nagged at to study something, with all sorts of stupid excuses to try to get me to study. Don't waste time, studies are important, don't get complacent... Can't you obviously see that that's a stupid way to argue?! Complacency isn't the issue here, yet everyone thinks I'm so confident that I'm not studying. All of you are idiots. I don't study not because I think I don't need it, or I'm ready, or I'm so smart that I don't need to. I just don't want to. And that is NOT complacency; it's simply my choice.

The only people who're acting complacent are the ones who try to rebut me. Just because I look dumb, I don't study and my CAP isn't that great, you think I'm stupid enough not to know when the bravado you display at being "right" is all fake. If you only can do one thing in the whole world, wouldn't you make sure you could at least do it well and good? So don't try to make stupid excuses, stands and judgement calls, just because you've "studied the whole day". Like I said, I see no point in studying a whole day and getting simple facts wrong.

And whatever you think now, I know I'll be one of the happiest people from here in the future. It's not a question of whether I'm smart or not, or whether I have potential even, but I know I'm going to be one of the top because I don't suffer such shortsightedness that so many people here have. If nothing else, I see much more clearly than few others here. I'm not as blind as many take me to be, and despite my many faults, I know that even though everyone else here will have better pay, or greater spending power, or more luck or better looks or more leadership potential, I will be the most fulfilled here. Because nothing else matters as much, yet you are blind enough to chase fleeting shadows. Like I said, most times, I'm the only one who sees clearly enough to play this game.

Astro will drive me nuts

I'm quite sick of people not caring about astro or something. It's technically the end of CCA for Yr 5s but hello, do you think anything can function if you remove half of its EXCO? Damn what la...

And then because of things like watching girlfriends at CO and studying or chionging homework and you can't turn up...

Sometimes I wish to really kill some people. It's just not correct to do this la. Like you hardly bother about the club, and even when I have something else on I have to call and check up and worry. Can't you just concentrate on what you're doing for once, and finish it up? It's not that difficult you know.

I think alot of people think I'm like this slacker who chiongs homework at the last minute and because of my good crapping skills I get great grades. The truth is, I'm not stupid. Studying can be done with so little energy and time spent that I can't comprehend why some people spend a whole fortnight doing a project when, if you sit down for 2 hours it can be finished. Granted, I can't be bothered to do homework so early most of the time, but when I finally get it done I manage to produce work that can still get me Bs or even As. And it's just because I concentrate when I start something. Other people play GE, listen to music, talk to others, then complain that they take so long to do their work and stuff.

Whatever la. If they're not interested, I'm going to give up on astro.