ECP

Went to the library today. With raddy. Studied abit of Bio. And abit of Math. Hahahas, didn't get much done, but still...

I wanted to go to ECP to eat, but in the end we went to this Aston's place. There's nice food there, but it's a little ex. Like 8 dollars for a main dish (chicken/steak/whatever), and 2 side dishes, and a drink. So it's all right I guess, its even cheaper than Macs.

Then I went to East Coast to get a coconut. In the end I took the coconut to the sand and just sat there for awhile. Then decided to slowly walk home. The coconut is surprisingly light after you suck all the water out. So now I have this coconut at home, next to me on the desk. It still looks kind of dirty, but I guess that's fine. It's as clean as I can get it now. I feel kind of sad for it. It had its head cracked open and its brains sucked out. And it floated for so long hoping to germinate or something, then kena caught and eaten. Haizz...

Life is hard when you don't have people around you. When you don't have your best friend by your side, always. When all you have are your thoughts, sad songs, last episodes of cartoons, and nothing new seems to be forthcoming. When you don't have any food left in the house, and when you've run out of chocolate and ice cream and fruits. When you probably can never have anyone over. When you find yourself making things up to keep yourself from killing yourself. When all you're doing is waiting for days to pass so that good times can come again. When you know that what you're feeling is probably just a phase, just something you're gonna get through, and you know it cause it's happened before and all, but right now you just can't believe it. When you look at the world, and see nothing but it's potential to go horribly wrong. When you see your future, and see nothing at all. When you know you can do so much more, but not right now. When you cry for help, but no one answers.

Life is hard. Growing up is hard.